Sexism!!!

Basically, as you can guess that traditional gender roles still have the same sway today as they ever did. I am a man and have shoulders and I am positive and funny, sweet and competant....at my very best, when I am supported, earning money, socialising, basically having a family and friends.
I have no family. I am alone and socialising is not much fun alone, pretty simple. I am struggling so romance is off the table, nobody likes a cry baby and friends have begun to delete me already.
Taboo telling the truth and being exactly who you are. It is amazing how much instant rejection there is to my tale of woe. Like nobody can link understanding and sympathy, but they hate pity.
I will skip ahead intime to a tiny slice of about 2 to 3 years ago.
7 misscarriages. I want kids more than anything and 7 misscarriages.
Now the woman in this scenario is my ex and I bet you thought of her as well. Good for you, it is a couple thing for sure.
I am completeley devistated and have no hope for a child now, my illness exaserbated by way more than 7 children I won't ever have, but don't you think that is enough for any woman or MAN to endure?
Suck it up buttercup is heartless and cruel, a convinient way to instantly divorce yourself from examining your own biases and sexism, and disappearing with self satisfied certaiunty that you are a good person and won't pity anyone.
Typical and sooooooooo (deep breath) oooooooo. Those who disappear prove to be the most heartless of all. I think if your reaction is anything but symothy and understanding you are a bigger loser than me. Delete me, disappear. Rita and Michelle and Dal, so many can actually care, show it and give sympathy and support. Proof I say of genunie humanity.
Now we can save those around us suffering, woman or man from depression if we once and for all abandon this every man for himself attitude. Around us all are those heading for an early grave who could use a diaganosis and some help. Suck it uyp butter cup is so heartless that those who ascribe it it as a solution are actively making this world a hell. If this is your attitude never bitch about Bush, Cheney, Iraq or anything else that heartless people do because there is an equality of damage that exists.
Would you yell at a woman who lost 7 babies? Call her a loser for crying 2 years later? Many do that to me and I an near the end of my rope with these inhumans who can only muster scorn instead of sympathy.If I had no legs would you yell at me to run?
If I had 1 lung would you yell at me to run?
If I had a fused spine would you yell at me to run?
Then why is it so hard to undestand that yelling at a depressed person to "get over it " is EXACTLY THE SAME CRUELTY AS YELLING, SCREAMING, CALLING DOWN, SCREAMING LOSER AND THEN DITCHING A 1 LEGGED MAN FOR NOT RUNNING.
Get it? Got it? Good!

Meanwhile back In Ogden

From 5 till 11 years old was a cool time and scarey on the streets. I loved school, to learn, read be aound people was awesome. My friends Jack Cooney and Bill Firmston were my saviours to be able to give and recieve support. So all, as always, is never all dark...but on the streets...
For those who know we all remeber the free for all fighting and victimizing that our hood was famous for was all true. My block had the back alley as the safest place because the catolic bullies were on 21 st and the public school bullies, of which there were more of or so it seemed, were on 21 A ST. Nowhere to run or hide at times.
It was shitty at school for this bullying thing at school too. Lots of tough guys and girls looking for victims. I stopped a bunch of beatdowns during those days and was becoming a bit of a peacenic. Maybe if any of you remember some of this stuff you could tell a story or two.